The closer the date for my half marathon approaches, the more I understand that actually running it won’t be a reality. At first I thought that I’d be able to run it, just not as fast as I was training for. Then I thought, maybe I could walk/run as my knee pleases… just to not completely give up on all of this.
My latest training has only been a few miles here and there, and most of those runs I’ve had to stop and stretch because my knee was hurting. A few miles. I can’t even imagine 13.1, downhill (which makes it worse), and stretching every 1-3 miles. What if… what if I am running and it gets so bad that even stretching doesn’t help? What if I end up walking almost an entire half marathon? And that is when I realized that I do NOT want to walk a half marathon. I could barely handle walking 2 miles back to my car after running a painful 2 miles away from my car. No thanks.
Most of all, I don’t want to risk doing any more damage to my knee. I have not given up on this dream. I will continue to run. Always. My knee is a temporary setback. However, if I push myself and run 13.1 miles despite this pain, who knows if/when I’ll be running again. As much as it frustrates me and makes me sad, I have to postpone my half marathon.
I miss running.
For now, I’m taking it slow. I will continue to train for a half marathon and when I am ready to run one, I will register. Hopefully, that is sooner than later. Come on, knee…